it’s been a while since i struggled with anxiety but the last few weeks have been ROUGH. this is like a record of me getting better and taking care of my mental health. + 19/english major @ mcgillu tw may ramble about ed related things
today is one of the better days. made sunday plans with J and will go to the clinic to start meds again. i don’t care ab diverting to the past anymore. i need to do what i gotta do and look after myself first.
also going to talk to english ab all this and ask for more time to finish my p2 practice. i hope she understands
watching electrasoul for emotional support
why is spotify acting up like when are they giving me an update!!!
now my emergency pills are STACKED and also stocked up on regular meds. drive home was really nice, bought a Dostoyevsky book and got iced tea with mom i love her to death
plans for tonight: work on philosophy essay watch new girl (?) read some kylie gilmore do a yoga with adrienne video tutoring job at 7 take a bath
excited to watch our show at 10... feeling weird in the pit of my stomach for no reason. will have to push through
focusing on chem for the next hour
feeling frustrated because i woke up this morning and the anxiety is still there. i took pills last night so i don’t understand how. going to have brunch then read a little
took half an emergency pill this morning and have been feeling ok since. Saturday was almost perfect
>>10 this was the same for this morning as well. but thankfully a little better. i took half a pill left over from yesterday. grabbed lunch with J and now we're sitting at a cafe doing work. i don't fucking want the week to start :(
my plan for the day is: finish philosophy essay work on chem notes watch new girl skip dinner
i feel ok
just me and my ebooks against the world
now im officially (?) a mcgill girl!!!
omfgomfg
i need to slow down a bit. have a session with ms J during lunch. i don't know what to do with myself rn but yeah i'll slowly figure shit out
took a half a pill at 8. i'm saving the rest for later. i have such a long day today. I want to give up so bad
sitting in philosophy and i can peek his lashes from behind its making my heart flutter fuck why does his lashes even have to be so hot
really? ur wearing a grey sweater AND those glasses? kill me already omfg like why do u have to be so cute
toxic study motivation let’s gooo
going to have an early, extra-long weekend with mom. i want to watch the minions movie with her
i was upset and anxious ab picture day all day yesterday but it went quite well today actually
worried to face my korean lit teacher bc i didn't try to do the assignment at all and i missed a test last lesson✨
the urge to starve myself and get take out at the same time honestly i feel like shit right now i feel trapped kinda
i'll probably do a paper 1 and finish CAS after school...
caffeine overload currently. i had a redbull yesterday and have been having so much coffee recently. but like i need another latte right now
i am so dumb i go down rabbit holes so easily
went to bed at 2am because of this and i keep looking up gorey stuff online why are low vibrational stuff so addicting
i need a mental cleanse. will be watching new girl during lunch.